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"*life is a road...tat we must walk..to archieve wat we ve sought! a part of my life!!...*^" +
"*When I was just a little girl...*^" +
"*My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story*^" +
"*It always was about a Princess in distress*^" +
"*And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory...*^" +
"*I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be...*^" +
"*Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me*^" +
"*I don't wanna be like Cinderella..*^" +
"*Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar*^" +
"*Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free*^" +
"*I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting*^" +
"*For a handsome prince to come and save me..*^" +
"*On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side...*^" +
"*Don't want to depend on no-one else*^" +
"*I'd rather rescue myself *^" +
"*Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind*^" +
"*Who's not afraid to show that he loves me*^" +
"*Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am *^" +
"*Don't need nobody taking care of me*^" +
"* I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me*^" +
"*When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing*^" +
"*I can slay, my own dragon*^" +
"*I can dream, my own dreams*^" +
"*My knight in shining armour is me*^" +
"*So I'm gonna set me free *^" +

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Monday, July 31, 2006

Ordinary day~went to college late because i purposely wanna skip english clas to take this short but usefull period to do revision for my math~ gonna sit for mua assessment s0on~ But before that i ahve to rush to taipan to helped my mom bank in sumthing~ When i recahed college ,is around 1145* class suppose start at 11* when the moment i wlaked inside lounge ,i saw all my classmate was sitting there,on line la,chit chat la, eating la~ ok la~automatically i get it d la~
class ve been cencelled la@@ haha I love cindy alotz~ she is mua best best best sifu~=p
i admit la, i am those lazy bug who did all the last minute revisionand only ll strat burning the midnight oil before the final is near~ otherwise i won give adamn=p seriously i don give admna!
i live for myself~ not for the book! although sometime i m overly lazy la=p but i still have my own way to study~ well math assessment wasn't that bad,i meanz not as bad as last term la=p atlease i m able to answer all d question,omg last term is like dman fucking hard,i just screwed up the whole paper! that's why i said plz ban all the numbers related subject~ And now whenever my firends wanna tease me,they ll say :tracy,come,letz do math: :tracy~ come is ur favourite sub!: omg~ rmb that day my last term math lec was inside d same lift wif me n sum of m buddies~ and everyone startedlaughing and ms.hema asked how am i doing....so i just tried my best to answer her in a serious way la=p mana tahu cindy,jack,gm,n etc start laughing d~ and Ms.hema said ofcuz i 'll rmb her haha,she said''i am her fav sub lec'' omg~
malu ni!! haha anyway i like her but i hate math! thats it=p
Well, after math....there s still some class to be continue~ thats why i hate monday!! wtf man..my clas is until 6 =_= .Seriosuly i have no idea what to do with the boi~ errr soemone la...which i m not really close to..but he gave me a realli diff feelingz,may be he might be really outstanding o popular to others la...But anyway he is just an ordinary boy la...i don't understand why all the girls kept staying their eyez on him wan~ it doesn't make sense huh~!
And there is a girl in my class is dmna dmna fucking obviously admiring at him wna la...but she just don dare to show it out infront of us~ cause normally our class girls use to say she is desperate of boys~haha anyway girl keep it up la~ i very geng wan wei observe peopo~ in otherz word is 8 la!
i Just can't stand people who ignore me and don;t trust me...it hurt badly if some of ur close friends or even family did that to you..i am extremyl sad right now....my tears dropeed like watrefall...it never stop falling from ym eyes~ i don't know why... am i going to be mad or sumthing ....fcuk it..i hate it~
Seriosuly i don't really like those people who fake m life upside down~ ..cna you all just back off !!i don't need someone who alwiz ask why am i crying but they don really care what i feel~
I talk alots,i smile everyday,i laugh out loud , it doesn't meanz i am happy~
I only show my feeling to some of close friends~ i m afraid of being betray....it happend n happend....i m tired of being in those situation...~ iit make me grow up lotz...
Last time i use to judge someone b their l0ok ..but now it will never ever come into my mind~
I use my heart to be friend with thos ewho got the heart~ not the l0ok
Ofcourse there r stil lotz peopo who hav the l0ok n alos the heart la~ haha
But i really don give a dmna on those who think they r so fucking pretty n handsome n ignore otherz 's one~ u back off man~
I m no longer d flying butterfly~i m now like a dead fish~
i need my life back!!!!!!! i wan ti bec!!!!!! Seriosuly i think my college's friends alll no life wan lo
i meanz some !! not all haha~ there r stil a few whivch i think they ve their own colouful life...
like gina,cheryl,kahyan*oopz....beside gina..they r all mua best friend bec fr high skol~*
I m afraid of losing all my friends~ although i noe someday we gonna seperate in diff countries...but we alwiz have agathering o some reunion party~...
that dya one of my friend ch0on seng ask me to promised him...we have to keep in touch nomatter what happednd !~ don't worry dudde~ i noe whatz ur feeling right now~ i ll alwiz be there for u!!! Friends is somehting that grow my life~ u all pain n colour up my life~
Which i noe..there is no one is perfetc..but i m trying ym best to be aperfect person...
i ll continue luv myself n everyone around me~
i ll accept sumthing new~...love ya dude~

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Friday, July 28, 2006

is 1.03 am right now,i'm crying infront of my monitor~ i watched d japanese drama gain*god,please give me more time* whenever i m down or sad,i will watch it~ it doesn't matter how many freaking times i watch it.Seriously i am able to control myself now,back to last few years ago ,i can cry within 1 minute...I stil remember i cried everyday back to 2 years ago...i don't blame them, i told myself i won't blame anyone who hurts me,because they taught me to be abetter person.I've learn to be tough after all those thinggy,although it take 3 years to recorver back...but for me it worth. My life is like passing ship, people walking in and out in my life like a routine ,best friends,liar,betrayer appear all the time,i don't runaway from it...i face it~
Whenever someone hurt me till mad, i cried but i tell myself i must be strong,only true survivor ll ever win in this mean generaton.

God, Please Give Me More Time!*
is an extremely tear-jerking piece that just makes you fall in love as well as feel for the characters. in this series really impressed me.It make me understand how delicate life is.

I wish i was a liquid being,liquid being don't need to feeel the pain and hurt~ Seriously i don't like those fake people around me.I don't wanna bother them at all...but the world doesn't allow me to do this ,please please please~ i hate people who talk without their heart~is like u tend to be so caring..when someone crying,u ask why r he/she crying but atcually u don't really care. Don't you u feel it was so fake....

Seriosuly i have afew friends which is kinda close to me, but i don't have the chance to ask them ,they seem like no boy will die liddat~ =_= err izit true? haha may be i m kinda abnormal~I really can't stand my class girls la ,omg some is like a drama queen,got any drama competition..they will definitely be the first,some are like no boys will die, some even worse..so desperate for boys, i have no idea why.~ errr seriously sometime i wanna call them sohai but i won la ofcourse ,they are all my friends.
Ofcourse i noe my ownself have no qualification to talk about others but atlease i experience the best the worse before.For those who r in love ,really hope you girls will appreciate d most importat things for girl la kie haha, although is a bit kolot but is true for me. You don't need to lie to ur ownself...u might lie to the whole world..but not ur ownself.~
For those who looking for boys wan n desperate of boys wan.....gambateh la~ Hope u all get ones in ur future haha~
For my ownself~ haha i m happy to be single rigt now~ i know i m kinda complicated~ i really wanna thankz to a few guyz who take care of me no matter what happen...We r friends right, you guyz ll find a better girls which can be 1000x prettier than me and bettre than me~
~i think thatz all bullshti for now~

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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Today went to college as usual~I was late for Mr.Patrick's class*air transport* gosh~who carez=p i knew he probably will blowing water inside the class, what bullshit airfrance la this la that la,i amdit he was full of experience in this tourism air transport field~ but.....the problem is he talk too much!!! DO you think we will give adman on your maneger post @@ eww~
At first i thought Mr.Boey class suck but now sorry to say that, he wasn't that bad at the first sign~=p aand patrick class( *doggie name huh*=p) was extremely dry!! haha. Mr brendon came inside d class and told us there is a briefing about industry training at 1 which meanz after class=_= die la, i ve already promised my friends's ccs,tevan,fy,teng not to ffk..and now~..
errr weelll..at the end ,i Still managae to fly to pyramid cause Gina,gm,cin,ack n me went tp pyramid n lo0ok for some peopo pressie*secret for now* and i ciaoz to redbox nmet up with them~
Tgm n Jack came and join us for a few minute haha~ (gm cum n halau me bec to taylors for briefing)..Damn it man~ when we ruch back to taylors ,i saw pui san(one of my classmtae) walking to lounge ,and i was like damn freaking hapie and st2pid me ...sumore scream*ohh yea,we r not the last* up to level 3...when we reached there,everyone saying byebye to us...fcu man....briefing finish~!@@ i am like WTF why am i so s2pid..haha gm laughed at me...*err*
ps is not the last,we r the last hahaa~ gosh~
Well after that went to lounge ,saw lay n diana~*senior* have agamble session there wifh them=p ps: the lounge is right outside the academic office,can c tru wan wei~ i ve no idea why r we gambling there haha~
i won!!! one buck wakakaka hahaha~
after that i ciaoz to pyramid and met up wif cs ,tevan ,stephy,fy n etc~
Have a lil gossip zippy at MCD haha as usual..38 gang~
took some picture ere~ll upload so0on muax

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Saturday, July 22, 2006

posing~~ before dinner

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Thursday, July 20, 2006

although d sun is realli hot.but we r force to
walk under d hot sun@@ dataran merdeka~m'sia
cindy,gm,me~smile~=>

wakaka~ shinying n me~

i donno when jack took this ~no idea
anyway cin,me n gm~

ker'miao.chin'miao.guek'miao'~ posing~

tourism's leng lui la! duh~
cin,me.gm.jas.chris.sy

i'll upload more when i'm free~ muax

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

cin with DOULOS~

TGM posing wif ciN~
'oi u all don mempersiasuikan starbuckz la kaka

the old cruise~

hehe poser me (right)n cin~

DOULOS~

tired~just came back from west port~for visitation~
went to visit DOULOS~i heard d ship is really old,is 2 years older than titanic ya haha~ which is approximately 82 yearzold~ err i'm not so sure=p anywya i have been to DOULOS twice..so tatz nth special today~ the weather is super extrmely hot, we r swt like hell=_=~
i guess that s all for today~ c ya~n_n

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Kahyin~miss ya..gonna have our 12 years friendship reunion hi-tea~
stephy ...stef..shermaynne~thankz for everything...thankz for passing my life n makes a diff in mua life~
sg wy,sjian,usj4,taylors buddies~ i lov u all~
But i'm kinda dissapointed on my best bud.....she used to be a perfect listener n great friends 4 me..i donnoe what happend..she changed alot..she told me she gonna play to the max b4 she ciaoz to UK....err i just can't except this reason....is a bit selfish my gurll......anyway..i stil love u nomatter what~
i believe that everyone who pass my my life is a gift by god~they did make a diff in mua life and i 'll alwiz appreciate it in my heart~

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b0o0o~i don't know what is going ,i seem lik a lazy bug~i don't feel like going to college, i don't feel like activate my brain,i just wan't to rest@@ i think i really need a short break~
Assignments ,assessments ,term test,mid term test, final test..everything will nv end~ how i wish i have 3 month breaks like otherz~i onli have one week holidays !!for every single term~
I am overly sensetive person...i think i 'm just hard to express my feelinga larr..in other wordz i am complicated hehe.May be for those who don't know me well ll judge me as a happy-go-lucky girl because i m alwiz with a smile on my face ,even if i'm sad,i will still hang amask on my face to tell others i'm okay~One of my lec asked me,tracy,i love to c u around..you r lika sunshine butterfly~i'm lik errrrr=_= wtf sunshine butterfly~goshh~
Well i really need a great listener~but it seem lik so hard to find a great listener....err ofcuz they r alwiz some precious person around me to cheer me up~ thankz dude...but what i need ...is...
argGgGggggGgg

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

pingu~cute

choonseng~me~chercher

penguin~pingu pingu pingu~
cute right>~

2 poser posing~

wohoo~ we can fly~skill mmg bagus!=_=
blame tat uncle cher~

hippo!!!*me*cher* hapie family=pblek

penguin~ 1,2,3~mummy,daddy,d 'son~

went to zoo with css and ccl~cher a~ sorry ya~although iz abit late la~but hou go mou right haha
here r some pic~

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cutie cutie~i wan this baby!!!=p

mummu:waRn~i cannot step in ere n grab f0od

i don't know why am i posting my youngest sis pic ere~
do we lo0k alike?no right haha~ jez don understand
why everyone said we l0ok alike

mua babaria~=p

mua precious pencil case~i grabbed it from mua
babaria sis=p my friends said i l0ok lik a kiddo
the gouverment nv set a rulez which is a college
student cannot bring princess pencil case to
skol!booo=p

wadda yushi*pokpok* isn't he cute?~pinchpinch

mua fefe!!! eh~mua precious~

cutie~ muackzzzz

i suppose to go to college today~but i didn't attend today =_= i didn't mean to skip class wei~ my head gonna burst *damn headache*>_< is killing me~ blame me!!my ownself~ i ate durian and i drank coffee y3sterday night!=p although iz yummy but now i'm paying twice back la wei!!
Goshh~help!! i slept for the whole day~from yesterday night till today 7pm@@ is approximately 19 hours~weeee and i'm feeling better now~ cher don worry ya~
i found kenneth khaw's bloggie !weee hapie wei~ iz been dman long i never talk to him!~
he is my senior back from SJ~he is 3 years older than me *he look 3 years younger than me* swt~jelous la wei~anyway i'm happy to found his blog,hope to keep in touch with him la~
he is one of the best senior in mualife keke~he don't bully peopo wei haha=p and now he is in Aussie now~ misss ya so much~ don't hav the chance to meet him.
siapa tau i chnage my mind ..go Aussie after mua Diploma right~haha

lead my life better~ to be a better person~kick my ass off=p teehee

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

A little faith
Brightens a rainy day
Life is difficult you can go away
Don't hide yourself in a corner
You have my place to stay
Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up You'll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow sunrise
The spirit can never die
Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear ,
make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness
See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
you have got to believe ,you are my destiny
We're meant to be your friends
That's what a friend should be

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yea~ is all comic!!!wakaka *i put them on my bed*

fuiyo~ mua edison~=p

inila tong sampah luggage=p

tong sampah katil~

hardworking right??i read magazine every night-o

pressie fr mua friends~

a pat fr mua messy room~*wee*
mua hellow kitty collection=p

Seriously ,i miss mua close biatch from SJ alots~
ash,stephy,kacy,ivy,n mua twin sis nikky plus me~ we R YY biatch~
Stephy ,when r u leaving 2 hawaii? biatch u r officially 18 this month! lov u~
6 ofus r doing different thinggy right now~ for my information
i m currently studying at taylors taking tourism n management
kacy is currently taking CAT in Sunway college~fuiyo
ashley currently taking mass com
stephy taking mass com to0o major in PR *inti nilai* leavin 2 Carlifornia soon~
ivy currently a form 6 student
nikky ~ biatch the most lucky among 6 of us~ fin her diploma last year~ n now currenly a
siu lai lai~ wakaka=p boo!!
fuiyoo~ ladies~ we gonna hav a reunion party kie~ muacck letz meet up at paris
steph!!!~Apicofparis~Eifel tower* exchanegla~iwannahotguyfromHawaii haha gonna bring back a hot hawaiian boi for me ya??haha=p
Damn !!! i reali wanna bei that idiot sei!! bastard!

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

yea~is 1.35pm ,sunday right now~ Yawn=p i just woke up and i am now at cher hs hehe
yesterday suppose to bring cher go hartamas but when the moment i reached here,Gn called me up, that siao ja po very wai she said>ok la i m at john hs now,i come fetch u now<
apa ni!! so i 55 run up to cher hs,that babi never pick up my phone luckly she is online on that moment so i asked tgm to do me a favour ,aks that sei po open the door for me!!!! speechless
So i make afast move to cgange a t-shirt n a shortz n run down~
Babi!!! when jack's car reached at the guard house,Gm told us to wlaked to her house cause the car is full with the bbq thinggy=_= swt so i make up my mind to force john to wlak with us!!
ttracy:john! turun! walk with us
john:huh=_+
TGM:ok ya~ john u turun(bergaya sial)
wakaka even though is unfair for john but i don't care=p
We watched dogeball at gm hs~ at first i tot it was a boring mv but is was freaking funny * smack * smack* so cher who sit beside me hav became my victim wakaka=p * smack*
We have aliltle gossip session there =p girls ma~ me and gm try to force cher to tell us about ''him'' haha at last end up me n tgm demo how the boi hold cher hand=p
it was extremely fun la,wakaka ~but for my opinion and ''useful'' advice for u cher~don't be stupid!! you shouldn't do this to yourself^ we love u ya muaxx
Gm laugh at cher's wushu T-shirt!! * smack* wakaka
GM:tracy ong~ u nqak bawa cher pergi mana ni
me:wanted to bring her go hartamas limteh wan la
GM:omg!!!!!! chew cher lyynnn u wanna wear this dragon wushu t shirt follow tracy go jhartamas ke?*start laughing non stop * smack* smack*
(we have the same habit wei! *smack peopo when we r high n hapie)
me:me also ma~
GM:urs diff,ur wan can!~ but cher 's wushu .....*laugh gain*
cher:SWT~
hahaha~ around 2 something we decide to go yum cha at ''che chong'' =p
chit chat chit chat ~ talk crabz~~
jack,gm n john went bec around 3 oclock ~but me n cher decide to continue yu cha hehe* girls talk~ we enjoyend our teh ais n food till 4 something~ so we ciaoz
the food wasn't that bad le~ nice food~*did i mention fat in this entries* damn
continue watched dvd*AQUAMARINE* at cher's room~
it was so nice!!! definitely worth to skiip my sleeping sessions ya@@ haha
and i slept around 6 something ,early in the morning~ till now.........i m blogging~ be fore i go pyramid wtach movie=p
c ya dude~ muaxxxx
ps:ker ker~ gm wear pyjamas go yum cha
ps:chew cher lynn! jgn la pakai wushu geh t shirt~ later gm laugh at u gain
ps:tgm!! *smack* smack*

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Saturday~no class today so ofcourse i will sleeping till the sun shine tru my ass =p tee hee~
i woke up around 2 oclock and i went down stair and serach for some food like a rat~ but my mom so mean stick a lil memo at the fridge there::tracy! don't eat so much.must diet::gosh~
my mood swing to the max when i saw this note+_+i knew it~i gained almost 10 kg in this 2 year. Okay la ,for my own good ,i think i better start my diet balancing meal start from today~
I am chatting with one of my close bud GM( she is not gm la~just a short form from her own name-guek mei ) haha we r chatting about life and Mr.right .Well TGM!! What's your plan for tonight>? nak makan naan ke? No future wan la~
Well, world cup is officially habis right now~sob sob~anyway is good for me lar=p so i won get broke ~I don't think i wanna be vf him anymore ,i hurt him and i feel so bad. He is a great boi , but he is not my Mr.right. u got d face,got d money, and u r so great wif ur own character ,so i hope you will lead ur life well and find a better gurl in ur future~ sorry MV~
Result coming out on monday~ damn~ screw it wei, my term 2 result wasn't that good,especially math,i really wanna bei hui sei ,guess what i get for my math?>? iz 6.2 over 20
gosh~ can you believe it ,but anyway i nv pass my math before in my high school~ but i get As in my PMR n ofcourse i pass my Spm as well.Scratching my head off, thinking why don't Malaysia gouverment ban n cancell all the math or ''numbers123 related sub'' wakaka~
Hope i can pass my term 2 test~ i think it should be okay la, i am not that dumb anyway=p wakaka the rest opf my subjets is stil okay and sap sap water la~ PA can cover back all my marks wakakaka=p (sombong ni) cheh~ jk la~i m alwiz that tai fong =p wakakaka
Waliao ,who noez i fail a??thta time i realli need to bang my head to the wall or jump down from KLCC lo. err choi choi choi ~ won't wan,blek=p ker kerr~ fatimah kerker.janji pass kan!
I 'm broke now~ i don't know where i spended all mua money wei~ my mom alwiz scold me ,buy rubbish =_= err apa la ni!!! lee ker hui also said my handbag l0ok lik tong sampah wakaka ish ish, never throw the candy's wrapping paper doesn't meantong sampah la wei!! yerrrr
One more month ,i'm 18!! hehe yea i m 18 d lU~ My senior's lay class gonna organize a domestic tour to penang on 12th of August ,which mena i cna go there celebrate bufday la~ wakaka!
good good~ i went to Penang plenty of time, i donno why, i just love it so much~ the food, the culture, the beach~ the sunset*teehee* it was extremely nice ya, so any couple who wanna spend a romantic days ,go la kie haha~too abd i m single , nvm la~ go obserb peopo =p haha weirdo~ Gonna go jogging later,really must make up my mind n kam fei d lo~ my mom alwiz shoot me indirectly wan ish~ some of my friend worse, they said :tracy u go diet la, u sure very pretty wan:,:tracy u diet d i sure kao u wan: omg so mean la wei~ which mean now i not pretty at all? oo i diet d ,u kao me u think i wan la??dong!!!! i damn hate those boi wan! only noe how to look at gurl's face and body, ofcourse i nv say don see la ,but for me inner beauty is much more important~
One of my close frend from my high school msg me yesterday and he told me her just broke up and he is lik a dead fish,so down n sad~i ve nv seen him lliddat~ he used to be a play boy last time But he said when he make up his mind n wanna be serious wif d gurl, the gurl asked for break~ it hurts lotz~ but who aks U !! las time alwiz dump girls jek+_+ oopizie i not suppose to tease him hor ,so bad~Haiya but i think he gonna be okay soon~ after one week he wil come n tel me he is in lov wif whowhowho~ dah bosan ni!~ haha anywya good luck dude=p
Okay la~ i stop bullshit-ing here fust~ ciaoz c ya muaxxx

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Sunday, July 09, 2006

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found yourself here huh. delighted, yes?

welll. the secret compartment has no secrets.
Shatter dreams broken life
Disaster without warning will always strike
I happened again and again
As if you have a target my friend
I have seen so many things
Broken lives shattered dreams
A life that is not what it means
It simply broken apart at the seams
A life with that is not fair
Some are rewarded who simple don't care
Being at the right point in time
Can cause supply and demand to pay you out just fine
A wrong turn down a fateful journey
Can cause you to be hurt badly
Pain that is hidden and excuses made
As if your committed suffering was not prepaid
Life is often cruel and unfair
All to often other people don't care
Lonely at the top you must be a fool
Suffer alone always is the most sadistically cruel
Win and the world lays at you feet
Hit an accident ands there will be few people to meet
Get credit when you win
Blame when you lose for you sins
It is a crime to be week society says
How you got there doesn't matter
Punish the weak and make them scatter
Often life dose to you what it can
Your crime is you are weak or unlucky in the end
So be strong and head my advice my friend
Only true survivors win ever again
It can be impossible to wait out a storm
A drowning man so tired can't even whistle a horn
So fight to the end I am bitter sworn
Tragedy won't make me bitter torn
I always wait out my protagonist in the end
My life's work is what I shall always defend
As if time heals all wounds
I say it won't
But thing go full circle but I don't

im slipping off the edge

im hanging by a thread

i wanna start this over again.